Sometimes, I’m insanely proud of how far I’ve come
until I’m humbled by remembering how far I have yet to go.
Other times, I’m insanely discouraged by how far I have yet to go
until I’m heartened by remembering how far I’ve come.
I think that regaining the ability to trust one’s own intuition is an essential part of healing and wholeness.
They say a broken clock
is right twice a day
and I don’t know if the days are getting faster
or if I’m fixing the clock,
but it feels like I’m right more and more often.
I am learning to trust myself again.
I once read in a book
that we won’t let anyone treat us worse
than we treat ourselves.
That makes me so excited for my next relationship,
because I’m treating myself better and better
“When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.”–African proverb
“Damn, that girl is beautiful.”
I catch myself admiring her braids,
trying not to stare.
It’s a strange and new thing,
noticing women in this way–
the same way I’ve always noticed men.
A strange, new, and wonderful thing.
I’m so angry at you
for telling me I was special
but not treating me like I was.
But I’m angrier still at myself
for hanging on for dear life
to your empty words
If you aren’t the magic carpet
that will fly me up out of my misery,
then I guess I’d better get started
on building some damn stairs
Let me be the beta male
or, better yet,
because there is
a great strength in softness,
a seismic power in nurturance,
and a mighty force in empathy.
Huge credit to Everything, Everywhere All At Once and Pop Culture Detective’s analysis of it for helping me see this more deeply.
not only learning what my love is worth,
but learning what your love was worth.
it wasn’t worth selling everything I am
When I die,
put “village crazy lady” in my obituary
as my occupation.
Village crazy lady—like Moana’s grandmother.
That’s who I really am—
beneath all of my roles.
Growing up, I never learned how to dance with another person.
I learned how to orbit them,
for they were the center of gravity;
how to flatten myself against walls,
for they always filled the room.
So I’m working on learning those things now:
how to be equal,
how to take up space,
how to give and take,
how to dance.