Sometimes, I’m insanely proud of how far I’ve come
until I’m humbled by remembering how far I have yet to go.
Other times, I’m insanely discouraged by how far I have yet to go
until I’m heartened by remembering how far I’ve come.
Tag: growth
Fixing the Clock
I think that regaining the ability to trust one’s own intuition is an essential part of healing and wholeness.
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They say a broken clock
is right twice a day
and I don’t know if the days are getting faster
or if I’m fixing the clock,
but it feels like I’m right more and more often.
I am learning to trust myself again.
You Are Your Own Hero
Recovery from love addiction
is the sadness of realizing nobody else can save you from your pain
and the brutal sweetness of knowing you must save yourself
(Fall 2022)
Woulda Shoulda Coulda
If only I’d known
that your sense of intellectual superiority,
your inability to admit when you were wrong,
and your unwillingness to reconsider your opinions
were not signs of strength,
but signs of weakness.
They were what drew me to you
in the beginning,
and what pushed me away
in the end.
Self-Defense
You can only abuse someone for so long
until they get tired of your shit
and stand up to you
This is true
even when that someone
is yourself
My Own Damn Planet
At the end of the day,
I didn’t want to be
one of the many moons
in your orbit.
I wanted to be
my own damn planet.
No Matter the Cost
In order to become the person I want to be,
I must pursue inner peace with the same fervor
that I used to pursue pleasure:
doing whatever it takes to get it,
no matter the cost.
Surrender to Your Mediocrity
I don’t care
if my poems
are just statements
with line breaks.
I love writing them,
and that’s what matters.
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“Dude, sucking at something is the first step to being sorta good at something”-Jake the Dog
The title of this poem was inspired by this YouTube video.
Tough Love
Sometimes,
when I lament to God, “why I can’t have him?”
she explains that it’s because
I must learn to embrace having myself
Recovery Meeting Observations
I find it striking that us addicts
are simultaneously the most fucked-up people
and the wisest
Musings and Music 