Sex Dreams IV

In case you’re confused about the Roman numeral in the title, this poem is an excerpt from a series of poems entitled “Sex Dreams” — the others (Sex Dreams I, Sex Dreams II, etc.) are not on the blog. 🙂 The titles are a play on words, as the poems are really about dreams of preventing and healing trauma and creating a better culture around sexuality.

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My deepest sex dream
is that one day
we will create a world
in which it is safe for
women and girls
to discover and explore
their sexuality
without fear
of physical
or reputational
danger.

Forgiveness II

Forgiveness
Isn’t what I thought it would be
It wasn’t a magical, one-time event
It is a process I must continue every day 
that’s never truly finished
It isn’t a steady, uphill climb toward healing
It is feeling I’ve completely forgiven you one day
and hating your guts the next 
It isn’t neat and tidy
It is as messy as the pain it is trying to resolve
but still, 
I am choosing it.

(written fall 2018)